"Every word of God proves true; he is a shield to those who take refuge in Him. Do not add to His words, lest He rebuke you and you be founds a liar." ~Proverb 30: 5-6
Hello my praying friends. Well, summer has definitely arrived. We decided earlier this year to not cramp our vegetable garden with to much plants so next Fall the harvest would be not so burdensome. We still have plenty of canning from the last two years. So we’re good.
Having a puppy that pees and pooed inside the house the first week was disgusting, but when he learned to go outside for his duties, it was wonderful. He has adjusted to the routine of the house and we’ve trained him with games outside helped Buddy to cope with is mistakes. It’s all good.
We thanks God for this insight for not wanting growing a large quantity of seedlings last spring. Unfortunately, the weather this spring has been colder and crappier then previous years. The seedlings haven’t grown much since. Added to that all the eggplants, cucumbers, and cantaloupes seedlings were eaten. And a mysterious thing happened with most of our raised-beds too. They are covered in grass seeds! No way I’m going to pulled at those out. The only difference we did last Fall was to add seaweeds to our raised- beds. Wow, things are growing great. Including grass!
Interesting how I went into a rabbits trail with this post. Instead of writing on Psalm 99, I’m sharing a few things. It’s all good:0 Maybe I’ve share this already that I’ve completed my study in Psalm 119 & Hebrews. Overwhelmed with the month of May with yardwork, gardening, puppy training and other things of life, I decided to slower the pace and to enjoy nature, train the puppy, love my husband, and spend a bit more time editing my first novel. So afterward, instead of diving into two new devotionals that I purchased last month for this coming summer, I decided to take a break from study and journaling altogether.
What did you said, “A break from God?” That sounds bad. A break from studying God’s word? Nope, that too sounds bad. Hum…I need to rest so I can mediate and appreciate what I’ve learn from God. Well, that’s truth and it’s still a break? Does it matter how I thought it through, because an awful feeling creeped into my mind, and I couldn’t sake it off. Wait for it.
Early morning while sipping on my coffee, sitting on my chair on our large deck that viewed into our wood, garden, and flower-bed, and enjoying God’s creation, I felt GUILTY for not doing anything. Seriously, in a snap the joy vanished, and the ugliness inclination to question my real reason why I desired a reasonable break from studying the Bible. Then GUIILT stick out his vile tongue at me, and I felt miserable and unworthy of God.
- For not reading my bible (I read the entire bible in 90 days this year)
- For not starting another Bible study right away I just completed two and I’ve done so many in the previous years).
- For not memorizing His Word (I’m typing Psalm 119 in BibleMemory.com every single day).
- For feeling Guilty for not doing anything with God (we’re having devotion every morning)
- For putting God off while enjoying His Creation.
- For neglecting whatever responsibility in service to God.
What’s wrong with me! Where is this GUILT coming from? Is not that I’m going on a trip, packed my suitcase, and leave God behind for a few weeks. Seriously, you cannot run away from the Almighty God! He is with us everywhere we go. On the contrary, my intention was to go through two wonderful devotional this summer. “With my whole Hear: study devotions and prayers on Psalm 119 and by Faith: in inductive Study on Hebrews 11, both books are by Sophron Studies. And believed it or not, my daughter just send me a gift for my birthday. A wonderful book: The Search for Significance by Robest S. McGee., which I ‘m presently reading. So why this feeling of guilt?
“God knows everything (1 John 3:20). He knows not only the minutest details of our lives but those of everything around us, for He mentions even knowing when a sparrow falls or when we lose a single hair (Matthew 10:29-30). Not only does God know everything that will occur until the end of history itself (Isaiah 46:9-10), but He also knows our very thoughts, even before we speak forth (Psalm 139:4). He knows our hearts from afar; He even saw us in the womb (Psalm 139:1-3, 15-16). Solomon expresses this truth perfectly when he says, “For you, you only, know the hearts of all the children of mankind” (1 Kings 8:39).”~ Got a Question
Was I questioning my self-worth or fearing that I’m wasn’t doing enough for God? Was just enjoying nature and other things in my life was a sin? The timing for received this book was perfect! The book in a nutshell explains a few things about how we valued our self-worth through others affirmation instead of seeing our truth worth through God’s eyes. Always something to learn. By heavens, I didn’t know I was a perfectionist and how it has affected my life and my family. Also how much I held back because of the fear of failure. I highly recommend your read this book.
So when this awful GUILT hit into the face, I just said, “Get behind me, Satan! I LOVE Jesus Christ, and I’m NOT wandering away from His teachings. His ways or His word. I’m simply reflecting on what I’ve learned, and I need to rest and understand what I have LEARN and put it all into PRACTICE.
So if GUILT smashed into your mind, tell yourself. Get out! And assured of yourself of God’s promises.
- God redeemed me and I am a new creation.
- I am deeply loved and fully pleasing to Him.
- I am totally accepted by God
- I am completed in Christ.
- He is my King and I’m his servant forever.
- No one can separate me from my heavenly Father who loves me.
Seriously, I wasn’t going to write about this topic, but sometimes we need to share what bothered us and how it affected our life. You are not alone. As Christians we struggled with sin and we should draw near God for comfort, repentance, and healing.
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