Hello Everyone, I haven’t forgot about praying with you. August and September are busy months for harvesting and canning. Also training Buddy, our six month old dog. Summer has been fantastically warm and dry, causing a drought in New Brunswick. Our well is good enough that I was able to water the garden. Praise the Lord for that.

We had visitors for three weeks at our house and the young people visited PEI, Nova Scotia, and part of New Brunswick, including alot of great beaches. We had wonderful fellowship and shared many life experiences that help us understood why people are who they are and do what they do.

I’ve to admit, that I’m still struggling with the SIN. I started saying ‘the SIN’ on a low-slow emphasis tone, instead of saying out loud, the you-know-what sin when I discussed it with those I love to keep me accountable. It’s a bit laughable and to the point. Sadly, I’ve not doing great in defeated the SIN. It’s a unceasing battle that left me shameful and exhausted.

Don’t we all face this type of battle? Don’t you dare think is an imaginable flux in the matrix or a coincidence. It’s a real spiritual battle that wont’ let you let breath, sleep, think, and even delight in God’s word. The SIN you’re fighting is merciless. It’s powerful. Unceasing. Irrelevant to your Christian life and spiritual growth. It has even lead you astray from God’s word to impurity of thought. I am there too!

The battle is mentally exhausting. Spiritually straining. At this point in my life, my prayer time with God is none existent. It simple as that. I haven’t pray faithfully for the last three-four year. It’s shameful and embarrassing. My prayer life is a mockery. It doesn’t exist. Does it bothered me? YES!!

How can I have a prayer blog to encourage others to learn how to pray to our Awesome God when I am barely able to do it myself? That is a question that has bothered me a lot. The oppression of evil is real, but I must not blame all things on Satan. Whatever difficulties I’m facing presently, I cannot quit the race, but must fight against that SIN. Yes, I’ve repented and confessed the SIN to God many times and endured its hold on my mind and body all day long. God sees my troubles and knows my heart, for He has died for that SIN. My SIN is forgiven, but I’m ashamed and He knows that too.

The battle against that SIN cannot be won on it own, but can be defeated if we believe with all our heart, mind, and soul that God will give us victory. His promise and word always gives me strength, comfort, and power to defeat my sinful habits. Including this one. How do I know this? By experienced, I could never defeat a sinful habit with my own will-power, but by using a verse from Scripture then recited aloud every times the SIN came to harassed me.

How I defeated once for all my anxieties over insecurity? I found a verse in the Bible that could work for for my cause then worked on memorizing, reciting, and posting that verse on my fridge. Because I went to that place a hundred time a day (smile). The verse I chosen was Matthew 6: 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”

At first, it was hard, like cutting the sweats from your diet. It’s brutal and unceasingly mentally difficult. The SIN which was being anxious over something; meaning not trusting God, and as soon as it manifested, I recited Matthew 6:34. Yes, every single times, either aloud or in my mind. Again and again and again. It lasted an entire year. Beside battling over anxieties, there was other family issues that I dealt with. Problems never go by itself. Always a combination of threes.

My focus was to stay on defeating the ANXIOUS SINFUL HABIT, that has kept my heart since a child and decided to trust God amidst all this family difficulties. So, while I remembered this battle and how I proceeded to fight it back, gave me hope for this present SIN (sexual lust). You think at my old age it doesn’t happens. It does! God is using this SIN to draw me closer to Him and I’m refusing to battle it. That is why, it had become a sinful matter. Yes, I’ve repented and exposed this SIN, but I’m weak in the flesh like everyone else.

So here it goes. I’ve searched for a verse and find one that suit my needs, but I haven’t posted or recite aloud so far. I’m terrified to engage in the battle once more. I’m doubtful, tired, and do not really want to let go of that SIN. But I MOST if I want to pray for my lost son. For my two others children. For the future of our sons and daughters. For my church and friends, For you. Yes you!

So here, I am before you admitting my SIN and how am I going to fight it back. Oh it’s going to be real hard and painful in mind and body to let it god. But I must do this; otherwise my heart is bleeding with regrets and shame. My chosen verse is Galatians 5: 16 “But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.”

It a simple verse that will help me fight back the SIN. Oh boy, now I’m accountable to all of you. The battle has began and I must fight it. I’m scare. I’m alone in caring my cross. Pray for me please.

Oh God, help me. See my trouble heart. See I have share my Sin with those people I do not know. Help me to be strong and endure the race. Let that sinful lust be gone for once. I want to pray again. ‘With my whole heart I cry; answer me, O LORD! I will keep your statutes.’ (Psalm 119:145). Let my heart be free from this SIN that I’ve hidden in my heart since I was a young adult. Let it be gone from me that I may not sin against You. “I call to you; save me, that I may observe your testimonies.” (Psalm 119: 146).

Oh Lord, teach me how to resist and not doubt that SIN can overcome my mind, body, and soul. Free me from this bad lustful habit that has been dwelling to long in my heart. “Hear my voice according to your steadfast love; O LORD, according to your justice give me life.” (Psalm 119: 149). Let me never doubt that IF I resist this SIN with your Word, it can be defeated. Let me cry before You, and let my plea come before You and deliver me according to your Word. (Psalm 119:169).

In Jesus Christ’s name. Amen.

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