Hello my praying friends, I will share short updates throughout the week on my progress and struggles with this particular SIN. I’m hoping that by sharing my real-life struggles, you can learn from me and take the armor of God for yourself.

Day 1- Yesterday was the usual struggle in the mind and flesh. During the day, it’s most in the SIN oppress my mint, and during the night the flesh. So it goes like that most of the day, when the SIN manifested, I recited Galatians 5: 16 “Walk by the Spirit and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh’. I did so during the entire attack. How many times it occurs? I lost count, but it would be between 15-20 times. It’s was ridiculous, shameful, and very hard. I wake up with the SIN right in my face and go to sleep with it. I hate it, but I love it. That is why it’s hard to rid of this SIN.

But I kept at it throughout the day and I was amazed that by repeating Galatians 5:16 over and over, braking the verse into smaller segment that it help me understand how powerful God’s word was for and it was the perfect one I chose for this warring against the flesh.

‘Walk by the Spirit‘ showed me that I had the internal power by the Spirit to fight this SIN. Jesus Christ died for ALL my sin, even this shameful one and gave me this perfect helper, the Holy Spirit to draw me to Christ and gave me the righteous tools to accomplish it: His Word is a two edge-sword. “For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.: Heb 4:12

Then when, I recited the rest: and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” Interestingly, it was this part that I seemed to forget. Humm

This is an example how the battle went when the SIN manifested through my mind.

The SIN manifested.

I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. Sheesh why can I not remember the rest. What is it? Leave me ALONE! (the SIN persisted, oppressing further). I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I don’t want to fight this anymore. I cannot fight it.

Discouraged, I did let the SIN take over my mind and I grieved, but eventually, I resumed the battle when another lustful thought oppressed my mind. Here we go again!

Leave me alone. I walk in the Spirit. Oh Spirit help me. I walk in the Spirit and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh. I WILL NOT gratify the desire of the flesh. I WILL NOT. Leave me alone! I WILL NOT gratify the flesh. I WILL NOT. I WILL NOT. I WILL NOT.

Then I realized that this part of the verse gave me that power to resist the SIN, because I WILL NOT (I will it not to temptation). Jesus Christ promise us that all temptation can be won if we believe. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.” (Heb 4:15). Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”( Matthew 26:41).

Oh Lord, see my trouble heart. I sin against You and I’ve gone astray. Forgive your servant and help me fight this SIN, by strengthen my willpower, so that I can endure the race of righteousness and believe that Your steadfast love is greater than my weaknesses. You gave me hope. Do not forsake me, O LORD!

“I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.” Romans 7: 23

See how God is good. There is never coincidence when we seek Him. Yesterday, my spouse and I drove to our Friday fellowship group. We sing, discussions, and we listened to a sermon. Well, while we drove I shared my fleshly struggled with my husband, poor man, he is trying so hard to help me and I’m very grateful, but we struggle with our sin alone sometimes for a good reason. God wants us to relay on HIM solemnly for victory. After sharing, I realized he has no concept of the intensity of my internal battle that goes on. He cannot put my shoes on! I told him is okay and loved him for trying.

After we sang a few songs, prayed, as a group we decided which sermon we would listen. Guest what three of us votes for: Yep The Battle of the Flesh and Spirit by Gary Hamrick. It wasn’t coincidence, that my heart grieved for released from this SIN, that I spoke with my husband, then this sermon. God sees and cares. Oh how I love you Jesus.

Yep, sorry, but not sorry. This blog wasn’t short. Oh boy let’s fight Day 2!