Hello everyone, how is your spiritual battle coming alone? Have you even started, or gave up entirely? It will linger and fester for your entire life if you don’t act upon it. Sin or whaterver suggestion the devil is using to keep you in check, because the devil certainly doesn’t want you at Jesus’s feet praying, or reading His word, or share His testimonies.

Satan and his minions wants you miserable. He wants your soul. He wants you to bow to his evil, ugly, and wrongs ways. To became so ashamed of yourself, you dare not called yourself a Chrsitian anymore. You have let Satan win over you.

Stop it! You are a Child of God. Fight back. God gave us the power to do so through the Holy Spirit, in Jesus’s name and the Father. His word is a double-edges sword, read it. Be equip for the spiritual battle. As tired as you are, as oppressed as the devil as pressed against your mind with lies. Lots of lies, don’t act upon it. Cast it out. Out of your mind, your heart. Protect your soul.

I’ve a break through yesterday. It was very powerful and joyful moment, but also the realisation how I hindered myself by not wanting or ready or prepared to do the last step of this confrontation with the SIN. As I mentioned, the SIN of lustful and impurity has been with me since childhood. It was the hardest thing to admit to myself that this SIN, even if started innocently it grew into a monstrous-ugly oppression on my mind that I couldn’t even think properly so much I was dazed into it. It’s pure evil that suggested I couldn’t rid of this SIN. An evil spirit put it upon my heart that I NEEDED this type of comfort, because I wasn’t love, understood, I would be lonely, cast out if I didn’t hold to this SIN. Blashemy!

Martin Loyd Jones, praise his heart for teaching me through those 29 sermons how we our minds is constantly under attack by the devil and how we can be assured it is not us alone that produce those sin. We are responsible for our sin when we ACTED upon the suggestion.

Martin Loyd Jones’ sermon on Temptation & Sin, really opened my eyes and heart that I had to mortify my sin in order NOT to succumb to the SIN again. He used Abraham sacrificing his only son, Isaic out of obedience and trust. God spare his only son and provide a perfect sacrifice. Mr. Jones then asked the question,” Are you willing to sacrifice that sin? To kill it?” Oh boy, that was a hard pill to swallow, knowing I was still holding to my SIN and wanted to control it. I cannot control the SIN that is impure. It needed to be killed.

I took my bible and my dog and went in the wood and in the name of Jesus cast out any evil oppressors around my soul. Call upon the Father for strength, and asked the Holy Spirit for guidance and help me to KILL the SIN. I prayed aloud, repeated words, sheesh…I sounded weird, but I didn’t care. I WAS PRAYING!

The amazing thing happened. Nope nothing that would blow your mind, but simply that for the first time, my mind was pitch black. No imaginary. No evil spirit. A outer darkness that I wasn’t afraid to be in and there I saw myself with a dagger, ready for battle. Ready for attacking my enemy: impure thought. I yelled in my mind, ” Get out evil spirits. You don’t belong here. You are a liars. You’re a deceiver. Get out! I pointed my dagger above my head and shouted, “I am a Child of God! I am a Child of God! I am a Child of God!”

My friend, you’re not imagining this. Our mind and our imagination is target by spiritual evils. Be aware and put the armour of God. Already, I’ve helped younger women fight their spiritual battle, training them to be equipped for it.

His timing to teach and equip me if the perfect time. Glory to Him who knows and sees all things. His reign last forever. I am a Child of GOD.

I encourage you to listen to the sermon below by Mr. Jones.

Oh Father, I pray that if anyone on this blog struggled with a SIN and an evil spirit is oppressing them, I prayed that you will free them. In Jesus’s name, free them from this oppression. Teach them to believe in Your Word. Protect them from Satan’s vile lies and deceits. Free them from their slave-mind-state. Awake them and bring your Child of God in repentance and freedom. They are Yours and nobody can snatched them out of your hands. Oh Father, hear my plea, rescue me according to your promise. Amen.

Resources:

Temptation & Sin :https://www.mljtrust.org/sermons/book-of-ephesians/temptation-and-sin/

Hello my praying friends, the battle against the vile of the devil is ongoing, never ceasing and I’m fulling aware that without the armour of God, I cannot stand on my own two feet. Some days, I’m refreshed and renewed by seeking His word and praying for strength. Others times, the Sin wins over because I’m too stubborn to let go completely of that Sin and the devil knows it!

Oh who sweet that God had provided the mean for me to defeat this stubborn Sin by seeking his ways through His word. Oh Lord, I’ve wandered astray when my desire were left unchecked.Oh Jesus, forgive your servant for gratifying the desires of my flesh, instead of resisting it with my whole being. In Jesus name. Amen.

2 Corinthians 10:4
The weapons of our warfare are not the weapons of the flesh. Instead, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.

Put the armour of God! Let’s go fight to good fight.

Resources:

• Image: https://wallpaperaccess.com/spiritual-warfare

• Biblehub

It was very helpful for me to start my mornings that while I typed verses from Psalm 119, I listened to a sermon by Martin Loyd Jones. His volume 7 on the Armour of God (Ephesian 6:10-13) made me understand the power Satan has on this world and why we battle against evil daily. Spiritual warfare is not an imaginary matter, but of a very real one. If there is so much evildoers than there most be a God.

The last few days, because I’ve dived into listening sermon by MLJ, and watched contents that is related to the Bible on YouTube, and prayed aloud in the wood while walking Buddy (about 10 minutes), somehow, I’ve regained self-control of my body, mind, and soul. Praise the Lord!

Fasting on eggs every days was helpful in cutting out this insane out control binged on coffee intake, surgery goodies, and snacking high carbs food. This entire year, I was out of control with my eating habits. Self-discipline was in great need and only by the help of the Spirit and baby steps in prayer, that I was able to regain some ground in this crazy battle. “Keep steady my steps according to your promise, and let not iniquity get dominion over me.” Psalm 119: 133

The Sin still lingers but mostly at night. If it comes during the day, I still say, “no”. Cast it out the temptation by asking Jesus for his help. What an exercise of willpower and grace God offers me if I obey and trust in Him with a whole heart. ” I call to you; save me, that I may observe your testimonies.” Psalm 119: 146

So the good fight continues and I’m lifting up my head, encouraged and comforted by His promise that He will not abandon me, but has equipped me for the days ahead. Lord Jesus, save me for myself, that I may fight this evildoing by your mighty power, not mine. Help me to resist evil and not be discourage by my falls. Lift me up! See your servant is looking up to you for her life depends on your steadfast love and faithfulness. In Jesus’s name. Amen.

Let’s Go Fight with the Armour of God!

Resources:

• Image:https://wallpaperaccess.com/spiritual-warfare

• Ben Azidi: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYQ-MiqFyQ0&t=56s

Hello my praying friends, how was your battle this week? The same or worse or you just don’t know where to begin with explain yourself how did you get there in the first place. Yes, Christians of all background struggled with personal sin and to add to the difficulties, Satan has oppressed us from the begging. Yep, with Eve and Adam. He won’t stop until Christ himself throw him and his minions in the Lake of fire for eternity. So my friend, take courage for we are in the winning team.

I’ll break down each day with a word of encouragement.

Day 24- Victory Again! (Oct 19)

It was unbelievable and wonderful to be able to resit the SIN by simply thinking ‘NO’ ; for the battle to be suppressed to silence. I praised God for his gentleness and consideration for my soul. Like it was a day off, but I knew this wasn’t over. I just felt it. God is afflicting me with this particular SIN so that I would rely on Him for strength and also to trust and obey his word. “For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.” (Gal 6:8)

Day 25:Falling into the Pit

I woke up with the SIN right back in my face. That day I succumbed so deep into my carnal sin, that I couldn’t snapped out of it. It destroyed the previous two wonderful days and couldn’t focus on doing anything productive that day. My strength weakened already by years of battling spiritual matter, brought me into a corner I started to question and hated. I needed to get up and fight again. Could I do it? Not without the Spirit help.

Day 26- Lift me up, O LORD

To help me fight the good fight, I started to listen to short clip by Paul Washer first thing in the morning with a good cup of hot herbal tea. Each day I’ve read and type about 25 verses of psalm 119 (BibleMemory). Been doing this for months now. And this morning I share (once again) my frustration about the SIN. My husband listened and is trying is best to help me out. Even if my spouse doesn’t understand what goes on in my head and heart, he gives me comfort and suggested I listened to Martin Loyd Jones sermons on Spiritual Warfare. He loves that Pastor, on the other hands, nay, not so much. But I took his advice anyway. Sheesh, I’m desperate enough to listen to Martin Loyd Jones! His sermons are know to be biblical and life applicable. Just what I needed. “I know, Lord, that Your judgements are righteous, And that You have afflicted me in faithfulness.” Psalm 119: 75

Day 27-Lots of Eggs

In 2023 we started a keto style of eating. We both lost weight and gain a sharper mind and physically got more energy. This is good for all group of age. We are both in our mid sixteenth. But this year, we both cheated and put back a bit of weight. That bothers women alot when we gain weight and it’s super discouraging to not be able to lose it. Why on earth am I sharing this? Well, it goes with my main problem of losing SELF-CONTROL. I want it back!!

By the grace of God and the help of the Holy Spirit, and for the love of Jesus Christ, I must obey and be self-discipline. “Do not deprive one another, except perhaps by agreement for a limited time, that you may devote yourselves to prayer; but then come together again, so that Satan may not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.” ( 1 Cor 7:5). Amazingly and without a doubt, God after listening to a few thing I must do to combat this fight was: Prayer, Scripture reading, mediating, memorising, and fasting.

No, I’m not ready to fast, but I wanted to reset the bad eating intake as much as my sinful spiritual intake to a better self-discipline ones. By coincidence, well nothing is coincidence these days, I watched on you tube this guy explaining the benefit of fasting on eggs for seven days and I’m at day three and feel great. But on the first night I got a migraine because of coffee withdrawal. And I’ve listened to two sermon by Martin Loyd Jones.

Day 28-Lunching with Friends

Wonderful day with our friends over a pot-lunch. We ate, sang hymns, and shared politics, Christians living, and all kind of word of encouragement for each other. Day 2 of fasting with eggs was fine too but only ate 5 with Greek salad. Read and memorised verses from Psalm 119. It was a great day with little sinful oppression.

17Now this I say and testify in the Lord, that you must no longer walk as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their minds. 18They are darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their hardness of heart. 19They have become callous and have given themselves up to sensuality, greedy to practice every kind of impurity. 20But that is not the way you learned Christ!— 21assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, 22to put off your old self,^f which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, 23and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, 24and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. ~ Ephesians 4:17-23

Here we go my praying friends, fight the good fight. Trust and obey God. He is our Captain and he is ahead of the war. The King of kings. Amen.

RESOURCES:

• Got a Question: What does the bible say about affliction:https://www.gotquestions.org/Bible-affliction.html
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• Got a Question: Self-discipline https://www.gotquestions.org/Bible-self-discipline.html
• Got a Question: spiritual bondage:https://www.gotquestions.org/spiritual-bondage.html

Hello my friends, yesterday as I wrote my blog, I was discouraged how this carnal sin affected my week and saw little hope in going through another week like this. Like withdrawal from sweet. The first three days are brutal. Well, I guess it is the same with withdrawal from a long-term carnal sin, it’s hard to let go of it.

There are a few things I can to do to successfully beat this sinful beast.

• Prayer
• Read Scriptue
• Arm myself with a verse
• Listen to sermon from a good source that will help me with this
• Stop reflecting and meditating on what has caused it and act upon it. Trust and Obey
• There is hope
• His promise are truth
• Do NOT doubt Jesus died for this sin too
• Do Not grieve the Spirit by doubting
• The Father knows your struggled and will carried out of it. His blessings are eternal.

Yesterday, my husband and I discussed how we can deal with long-term sin. We both dealt differently with it, but it was good and hurtful to share this too. I know he’s trying hard to help me out, but what he suggested, I’ve tried it all. But it wasn’t in vain that we talk, because my heart listened to his suggestion of listening to a series of 40 sermons by Martin Loyd Jones on Ephesians 6: 10-13. Of course, you guessed it; the whole armor of God.

Yesterday, it was great to have my mind completely clear and focus and without the carnal sin pounding in my head like an headache. “Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.” (Eph 6: 11)

Praise His name!

https://www.mljtrust.org/search/?name=&q=ephesian+6%3A10&books=&book_chapters=&topics=

Read Hebrews 12

The last few days have been brutality hard and couldn’t reasoned within myself and become uncontrollably satisfied with my carnal sin. Instead of accusing Satan’s evil schemes, I blamed myself for not wanting to resist those carnal desires. Reasoning my way out of this pit of sinful thoughts was no longer a drive but rested in total gratification in it. A self-destructive sin that left me exhausted, unfeeling, separated from God’s Word. At this point, I cannot start a Bible study or enjoy His Word when my days are filled with carnal thoughts. This must be addressed and I know that God’s wants me to focus on this sinful repeated offence.

Oh faithful servant of God; do not despair, but fight the good fight.

Here is my fight!

Under a blanket of remorse, with weary eyes cast down in utter misery, I’m unable to lift my head to the King of kings because of my great shame. In my heart, I know, He has died for those lustful sin too, but I kept my eyes gazed down, fearing that if I lifted them up, reproaches and discipline awaits me. I should fully deserved it from my Father. But my Father in heavens; a patient Father and merciful God, called me back to Him in love.

“28Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”~ Matthew 11: 28-30

Almighty God, hear your servant’s plea! Even if I’ve repented of this sin again and again, not a single day I’ve been released from this pinning sin upon my soul. Save your servant that I may not be ashamed. Holy Spirit, teach me not to crave for lustful worldliness, but Christ’s righteousness instead.

"115 Depart from me, you evildoers,that I may keep the commandments of my God. 116 Uphold me according to your promise, that I may live,and let me not be put to shame in my hope! 117 Hold me up, that I may be safe and have regard for your statutes continually" ~ Psalm 119: 115-117

Fatigued by this long-lasting emotional suppression and evil oppression unceasingly taunting me, caused a heavy burden upon my soul. This carnal sin comes back with a vengeance, afflicting me daily. Oh Father, I must take comfort in Your word,! Cast this shadow of darkness that enveloped with distress and shame. Let not evil oppression triumph over me, while I struggled in my sins. Oh Jesus, remove from me this blanket of shame and gave me victory over my instability.

“Peter, one of the most prominent disciples, often exemplifies instability through his impulsive actions and moments of fear. In Matthew 14:28-31, Peter’s initial boldness to walk on water towards Jesus quickly turns to fear, causing him to sink. Jesus responds, “You of little faith,” He said, “why did you doubt?” . This incident illustrates Peter’s vacillation between faith and doubt.” ~Biblehub

Oh Father, you servant is in a pit of a sinful habit so deep that I cannot rescue myself. The affliction you’ve induce upon your servant may be difficult, but in your steadfast love, I shall trust. Let my heart continue seeking your ways by trusting in You. “Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons?”~ Heb 12:3-5

A sojourner in the world. God is my King. His steadfast love will sustain and save me. My hope is in Christ. Amen.

Let God’s Word a reminder how much he cares for us.

"therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, 13and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. 14Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord. 15See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no “root of bitterness” springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled; 16 that no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, who sold his birthright for a single meal. 17 For you know that afterward, when he desired to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no chance to repent, though he sought it with tears." ~Heb 12

Thank you, O God, for strengthening me by writing this blog. Your servant in battle. Amen

And the battle goes on and on. Whatever the cause, I must fight the good fight and never let go of my eternal reward; which is the gift of grace, everlasting life with God, and grounded in His promises(Psa 16:11).

Oh Jesus, let all my 'no' be strong, so that I may resist the devil's temptation. "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"(James 4:7). When those temptations descended upon me, l sought  my strength in the Spirit who gave me the ability to resist it. You've taught me not to doubt to trust You and the Sin could be gone by simply saying, "NO". O LORD, as soon as my heart believed in your Word, it WAS my victory.  The refuge iI sought in Your word comforted and renewed my heart, and soul. Help me not be ashamed of my testimonies when I shared this with people. Let your servant continue fighting the good fight and save me from further shameful temptations that are not profitable or worthy of your Name. Amen.

My friend, the battle isn’t over yet and here is an update how I’m doing so far. Since I’ve used Galatians 5:16 “Walk in the Spirit and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh or simply saying, “No,” as lessened the SIN it hold upon me. It may be hard to believe, but this battle of the Spirit and flesh was something I’ve been struggling to fight back years ago, but didn’t have the willpower or the understanding how I got there. Now that I REALLY desire to please God and deal with this SIN, I plea with Him to help me out. He answered my prayer. “Out of my distress I called on the LORD; the LORD answered me and set me free.” (Psalm 118: 5)

For days, I’ve doubted the SIN could be overcome, because I was constantly harassed by the SIN, but kept saying Galatians 5:16 or ‘no., anyway. The SIN manifested so many times, that I ceased to count the strikes out of shame. I lifted my head and pray that God’s faithfulness and promise, He would help me defeat this SIN.

Be refusing to indulge in the SIN by saying Galatians 5:16 or No, a sad awareness of where and when the was taking hold of me. Interestingly, every single peaceful place I sought God, was replaced by the SIN. When I woke up, when I read the Bible, while I listened to the pastor, during our devotion, while in company of family or friend. Unceasing bringing me to a state of detachment from people and my husband, and wandered away from God unwillingly. It’s terrible! Graciously, God reminded me that I had to put on the whole armour of God.

10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. 13Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. 16In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; 17and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end, keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, 19and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.” ~biblehub ESV

It came to revelation to me after I reflected on my life, that I had switched from the stress of anxiety and lustful impurity of the mind. All that was rooted deep inside because of a lack of affirmation in my youth and years of suppressing emotional feelings. When I figured that one out recently, it left me dumbfounded. It this sad the know that your past will affect the present.

In 2018, when we find our our youngest son would rather live for the world, I felt like the world suddenly collapse under my feet, and said to myself, “I pray for him. I’m a prayer-warrior!” That is exactly when my prayer-life came to an sudden stop. Sure looked like it. Soon after, I went into a mild depression for six month before I surrender to God my burden and trusted Him completely. I was brutally difficult. During that period, praying and journaling were pretty much non-hesitant.

Another thing collided with this lack of prayer was an series of stressful events that I could not longer controlled. By 2020, I was mentally exhausted as many of us were. The lies and deceit, I cannot tolerate but apparently we’ve to live in it now. This is our reality and new normal. This dormant weak SIN got out control, like a erupting volcano destroying whatever on its path. Will I ever know peace? Does God want me living in this sin eternally? NO. he does not! Jesus Christ atone for that SIN. So I know deep down, whatever lies goes into my mind, Christ’s love is superior and he had me covered. I will come out victorious.

Oh Lord, your servant is fighting the good fight. Gave me strength to endure it. Spirit, teach me to stand firm in my faith. Oh Jesus, cast out all evils from me and surround me with your loving grace. In Jesus Christ. Amen

It bothered me throughout the entire day that the SIN was constantly bumping back into my mind. It is a an deadly addiction that I cannot control without the help of the Holy Spirit. Teach me self-control and let my No, be no. Oh Lord, give me the willpower to combat this SIN and help others that are embarking with me in this same spiritual warfare, with worthless thoughts and worldly desires that bring us to our knees in tears and grievance.

Without the Spirit, I am nothing on my own. My willpower is so weak, I cannot fight. it back. O Spirit, hear your servant plea and help me to recant this SIN. Let your servant delight in your promise. Amen

Praise the Lord! Yesterday was a good day and by the power of the Holy Spirit, the SIN wasn’t so predominant during the day. I was tempted about three-four times, but the temptation lingered for 10-15 minutes I think. I praised the name of Jesus Christ so many times during the day that He gave me the willpower to fight this SIN with a fervent heart. And then I remembered this verse.

28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11: 28-30)

My desires to WILL NOT to this SIN and walk in the Spirit has finally came to fruition. When our mind and heart has no desires to change, there is no struggles or will in wanted it. We are in a time of insanity and craziness, I WANT to pray for my adult children’s. I WANT to pray for our daughters and sons of our nations. The battle is on for me! Yesterday, for the first time in weeks, I was able to pray while walking with my dog in our woods for ten minutes without being harassed by the SIN. It was beautiful. My heart rejoiced and even wonder how great it would be to have that SIN completely eradicated from my life. Hey hey, here the little doubt coming in. GET OUT!

When I am this burden or cornered into a place I dislike, I listened to Paul Washer short vignette that boosted my willpower to serve God or a listened to a series of his sermons. That is the Pastor that works for me. You may have a favorite of your own.

Also, I wrote an entry on my journal. Praised God who sees all things. Come with me, and fight the good fight. Never give up for He is worthy of our love.

Hello my praying friends, I will share short updates throughout the week on my progress and struggles with this particular SIN. I’m hoping that by sharing my real-life struggles, you can learn from me and take the armor of God for yourself.

Day 1- Yesterday was the usual struggle in the mind and flesh. During the day, it’s most in the SIN oppress my mint, and during the night the flesh. So it goes like that most of the day, when the SIN manifested, I recited Galatians 5: 16 “Walk by the Spirit and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh’. I did so during the entire attack. How many times it occurs? I lost count, but it would be between 15-20 times. It’s was ridiculous, shameful, and very hard. I wake up with the SIN right in my face and go to sleep with it. I hate it, but I love it. That is why it’s hard to rid of this SIN.

But I kept at it throughout the day and I was amazed that by repeating Galatians 5:16 over and over, braking the verse into smaller segment that it help me understand how powerful God’s word was for and it was the perfect one I chose for this warring against the flesh.

‘Walk by the Spirit‘ showed me that I had the internal power by the Spirit to fight this SIN. Jesus Christ died for ALL my sin, even this shameful one and gave me this perfect helper, the Holy Spirit to draw me to Christ and gave me the righteous tools to accomplish it: His Word is a two edge-sword. “For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.: Heb 4:12

Then when, I recited the rest: and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” Interestingly, it was this part that I seemed to forget. Humm

This is an example how the battle went when the SIN manifested through my mind.

The SIN manifested.

I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. Sheesh why can I not remember the rest. What is it? Leave me ALONE! (the SIN persisted, oppressing further). I walk in the Spirit. I walk in the Spirit. I don’t want to fight this anymore. I cannot fight it.

Discouraged, I did let the SIN take over my mind and I grieved, but eventually, I resumed the battle when another lustful thought oppressed my mind. Here we go again!

Leave me alone. I walk in the Spirit. Oh Spirit help me. I walk in the Spirit and I will not gratify the desires of the flesh. I WILL NOT gratify the desire of the flesh. I WILL NOT. Leave me alone! I WILL NOT gratify the flesh. I WILL NOT. I WILL NOT. I WILL NOT.

Then I realized that this part of the verse gave me that power to resist the SIN, because I WILL NOT (I will it not to temptation). Jesus Christ promise us that all temptation can be won if we believe. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.” (Heb 4:15). Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”( Matthew 26:41).

Oh Lord, see my trouble heart. I sin against You and I’ve gone astray. Forgive your servant and help me fight this SIN, by strengthen my willpower, so that I can endure the race of righteousness and believe that Your steadfast love is greater than my weaknesses. You gave me hope. Do not forsake me, O LORD!

“I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.” Romans 7: 23

See how God is good. There is never coincidence when we seek Him. Yesterday, my spouse and I drove to our Friday fellowship group. We sing, discussions, and we listened to a sermon. Well, while we drove I shared my fleshly struggled with my husband, poor man, he is trying so hard to help me and I’m very grateful, but we struggle with our sin alone sometimes for a good reason. God wants us to relay on HIM solemnly for victory. After sharing, I realized he has no concept of the intensity of my internal battle that goes on. He cannot put my shoes on! I told him is okay and loved him for trying.

After we sang a few songs, prayed, as a group we decided which sermon we would listen. Guest what three of us votes for: Yep The Battle of the Flesh and Spirit by Gary Hamrick. It wasn’t coincidence, that my heart grieved for released from this SIN, that I spoke with my husband, then this sermon. God sees and cares. Oh how I love you Jesus.

Yep, sorry, but not sorry. This blog wasn’t short. Oh boy let’s fight Day 2!